da-da-da come on baby we ain't gonna live forever

Sunday, January 1, 2012 6:04 AM

First of all, happy new year. 2012, scary eh? But what a start. 1. I'm ill 2. You're not replying my text and replying hers. 3. Ditched 4. Just overall annoyed. So yeah, way to start a new year.

Now, where should i start.. Oh right, at where i realised when i thought i was special, that you talk to like A, B & M like that too? A lil' flirty doncha think? Maybe i'm jumping into conclusions, but hey! I might be wrong, and i'm willing to take the risk, but whatever okay now i sound stupid. You pervade my every thought, like a flood. And damn i'm annoyed because of that, hell i hate it. But truth is, i've been in love with you since day 1.. And i don't think, anyone, could replace that. I really do try to stop, because of my own reasons, But really who am i kidding? I hate the way your smile uplifts me, i hate the way you catch me staring at you. I hate the way you look so angelic. I hate the way you drive me crazy. But really, i hate and absolutely dread the possibility that you might love someone else. And you know how that kills me inside. You know, right now, i'm just so confused, by everything. Maybe its a sign from God that i needa wake up from my dreamy fantasy world. Maybe its just fate, that I hate you so much, but at the same time, love you to bits. #maodun

Wednesday, November 23, 2011 11:53 PM

Just cos i said it don't mean i meant it, just cos you heard it. Rumour has it.

11:48 PM

The moments were great while they lasted.
The thing is, it'll never come true.
You're too good for me.

11:41 PM

So its been a year since i've posted, gosh. And i've been feeling so bubbly lately. Well, its been you for quite a while, mr sushi man. But has it ever been me? I always act like i'm fine, or i'm happy, but on the inside, i'm really messed up. You're just as clueless as a lost kid in the mall, you don't know a thing about how i feel. But hey, we're still young, there's a whole life ahead of us for you to realise. :) Then, there's this constant tugging at my heart where only you can stop. there's this void in my heart that only you can fill. and this time, i feel serious, i'm not playing around i'm 4 real.

Thursday, December 23, 2010 8:29 AM

so what? am i the back up plan, when all else fails? sorry, i'm not. why, are you embarrassed of me? are you afraid of what others might think if they knew? well, if yeah, then... thats not real. whatever you've said to be real... isn't. because you don't seem to understand how a girl feels when you go on and on about a girl thats not her. but i just fake a smile, put on a mask even when i'm sad. even when my emotions are just as overwhelming as my smile. so i'll be strong, and i'll be fine. one day, you're just gonna understand. you will. because its so painful, like a gash in the heart. its slow and it hurts so bad. when i look at you and you see someone else. i understands love leaves behind scars you can never erase, but cuts recover. maybe you'll see, one day, you'll realise... that you can only love one girl.

Sunday, December 12, 2010 3:29 AM

CHUOCKLAT.
CACAO
CHOCOLATE
COCOA
CHAWCLAT
<3

Its time to cheer up Friday, December 3, 2010 9:09 AM

I've decided to let go of this matter, put it in a bubble and send it up to God through prayer. You know what? I was so at the top of the world, i baked cupcakes. ORANGE cupcakes. I'll let God take charge, and start to enjoy the rest of my holiday. And not let ANYONE, destroy or even go near ruining my mood. nothing's gonna, because there are people that put in effort to actually give me this holiday, and i know it isn't easy. I'm not gonna let that go to waste and have a stupid heavy burden on my shoulders when i'm on a holiday. Sure i needa cool off. I'm not wrong anyways, i have nothing to be sorry about. I'm going to act maturely, and grow up. Not bear grudges, and move on. If you're not going to do that, its your loss. Go show everyone how childish you are. Enough about this bs. Norway's a wonderland. Snow and food<3